It’s just another year, why does it seem so big? Ever since April I have been struggling with the thought of almost being thirty. I admit, even a few tears have been shed! I keep telling myself it’s just another year, it’s not a big deal, yet I just can’t help myself. There were other milestones in my life that I really didn’t care about, like graduating from high school, I was so excited, turning 18-excited, moving 8 hrs away for college, yep excited didn’t shed a tear for this new chapter. Graduated from college, excited, although worried about a job, got a job excited. Married the love of my life, guess what excited. Purchased my first home, excited. Turned twenty-five, didn’t notice. Never did I shed a tear or worry about any of these major “life changing” events. Yet about 6 months ago I started freaking out about 30! My husband turned 30 last week and he just rolled right on like it was nothing. Yet for most women this year is a monumental one, I recently read an article that said how women feel about turning 30 men feel about turning 58.
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Kindergarten (looked for baby photo but couldn't find one) |
So the question is why?
Theory 1: I remember my mom’s thirtieth birthday. My aunt harassed her for weeks. She sent Depends in the mail and on another day black roses, so perhaps I was molded by my crazy aunt to think 30 was old.
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HS Graduation (all photos are photos of photos, not the best quality) |
Theory 2: As a kid I always though being 20 was cool, hip, young, and fresh. So in my mind it didn’t matter that I was 27, I was still in my 20’s. I was more mature, but still felt I was “college age” and it was great at work I felt like I could share “wisdom” without being ignored because I was too old!
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college years |
Theory 3: I admit it, I’m a bit vain, but I think if every girl is honest we all are a bit vain. Hence this statement Joey made about 5 years ago keeps running through my mind and I think “is this what people think when they see me?” Joey’s dastardly comment “Oh, are you talking about the older lady who used to be pretty.” The older lady was 33!
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the big day |
Theory 4: Science says that women start to feel the pull of their biological clock around thirty; they feel that they need to meet someone, get married, in order to have a kid by 35. I’ve already done the first two so I would think I have another few years before this would kick in
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our first place |
Theory 5: I’ve noticed a few changes; my metabolism has definitely slowed over the past two years. My face has become less full and I’ve even noticed a few fine lines here and there.
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30 and dreading 30 |
Whatever the reason, I’m hoping the next 7 days go by very slowly!